Undecided on Life

When I first started college, I went into my freshman year thinking I knew exactly what I wanted to do. I wanted to major in film. That's all I had thought about during my late high school years. Films had inspired me and I was constantly researching films to fill my head with random facts about the movie industry. I wanted to be a big-time movie producer. While I was taking my second film class, I realized how unhappy I was with the class. It made me completely hate film. It wasn't inspiring me to keep trudging forward with my film major. Even though I passed the class, I decided that a film major wasn't for me. I felt like a complete failure. This was what I had wanted to do with my life, so why was I giving up just after my second film class? I consulted with my friend who is on her way to becoming a movie producer. She works at Disney studios and got the job without having a film major. I was instantly relieved. She said to become a producer movie studios would look for someone who attended a four year university and majored in communications or english. Just because I'm not majoring in film doesn't mean I can't still achieve my dream. I have now changed my major to communications (I was minoring in communications) and I have enjoyed every class I have taken so far.

I tend to dream big. I would rather be poor and love my job than absolutely hate my job and be filthy rich. That's just how I'm wired. There are so many more dreams I have besides taking a stab at the movie business. Here's just a sample of all the things I would like to accomplish in my life. Dream big or go home, right? 

- editor of a fashion magazine 

- be on broadway...yes I'm a theatre junkie...aka nerd. (I had thought about majoring in theatre or voice way before I thought about film)

- personal stylist 

- designer 

I just have so many ideas that I want to share with everyone! I know to a lot of people, these are not realistic goals. But in my eyes, when I set my mind to it I can accomplish anything. I don't care how many people throw their negative comments in my face, I will achieve my goals. 

Sharp Curves Ahead

The topic I'm about to discuss is one that is very close to my heart. 
Body Image. I can honestly say that every girl I know has a body image problem. They always manage to find something wrong with their body. If it's not their nose, it's their boobs. If it's not their thighs, then it's their stomach.Why does everyone strive to be that perfect, skinny size 2 girl? Lots of girls are so insecure with their bodies that some will go to dangerous lengths to be skinny. So many women today have eating-disorders because they want to be perfect just like the women they see in magazines. Yes, the skinny women that we see in magazines and films are beautiful, but that doesn't mean you have to be just like them. Most of the women that are seen in magazines are photo shopped and airbrushed to obtain that perfection. Women are supposed to have curves. It's something that comes naturally to us. In today's society if a women has curves, then she is fat. I don't understand how our society has become so skewed in their thinking. We can thank Hollywood for drilling that "perfect" image into our heads, but lately Hollywood has been praising curves more and more. We can thank people like Christina Hendricks, Penelope Cruz, Kim Kardashian, Adele, and Kate Winslet for making it easier on women to accept their bodies just as they are. These ladies didn't fall into the stereotypical Hollywood image. They stood strong. They are real women who aren't ashamed with their curves. Are they fat? I think not. Girls should look at these women and feel inspired to be themselves. Women in Hollywood have the power to inspire girls to be healthy, and not dangerously skinny. Models do not help women feel comfortable in their skin. I understand that models are supposed to skinny, but can't they be healthy too? Why is it that a plus-size model is considered a size 6 or more? That's so stupid and ridiculous. A size 6 is not plus size. They have distorted all the sizes. I'm here to tell all the girls out there that they are beautiful and perfect just the way they are whether they are a size 00 or a size 24. As long as girls are beautiful and healthy inside and out then they will certainly flourish in life.

Christina Hendrick

Kim Kardashian

A dangerously skinny model